The Incomplete 21

I came here on the 27th of September.A week before my B'day.It was my 21st Bday and man i had made huge plans for this one.21,come on its a turning point in ones life and it just comes once(every bday does but cmon!!!)

Goa,girls,bikes,booze,music well nothing happened.

I would have not had to give any exam for the 1st time I can remember in a long long time.Otherwise I never celebrate my bday on 2nd of October cos its fuckin exam time!!!(Read the disgust as I type)

Guildford,2nd October 2008.

I cut a cake(my worst cake ever),a game of football with the goras(Thats the best part) and celebrate it with a gang of strangers(who i kinda know now) with no one around for that feeling of HOME.

I dont crave for gifts in a way but its always nice to gift stuff to other people.And I can vouch for the fact that I love giving away gifts to people who I like and I know well.

PRP,Jeenal and Reni had given away fab gifts much before my bday cos obviously I had to leave.And ofcourse Aanchal too,but on that day,honestly I was lost.

Homesick and far away trust me that is not the way anyone would want to spend their bday.

But that whole thing today I feel has made me much stronger as I write about my coming months in the UK.

But till date this has to be the worst bday of my life.And it had to be my 21st!!

I sink I'm a champion! and ze champion always comes back for more success.Shut up Sven!!Well

2009 is here and its a new improved me on the keyboard.Done with my operation bathroom cleanuo,I lay back and start writing again.A libran always has to have his or her say and its about time I restart something I promised I wont ever do.\

Ive grown up a lot in these 6 months away from home,man what a big difference these days have made to my life.

Apart from that, its the song 'Lost' by my fave English band Coldplay that has inspired me to put re start writing.

I think of the wonderful times Ive had in the UK,the people Ive met all the new experiences and having a heart to heart conversation with Audi long time back(a fellow libran,and a good friend of mine) I am back.I could have started again on the 2nd of feb,but aaaah I was lazy and moody.But Im back and here if someone markets my blog.Hell yeah..feels good

Forza Roma!!! We have been undeservingly treated and I hope we get our justice.Roma4eva

So Long(Goodbye my lover)

As I lay down the rose , why did this happen to me no one knows,I'm helpless , this is the path that He has chosen.I've accepted it , feet trembling , heart frozen.A stream of sweat flows , I just ca'nt bear the agony.Nothing lasts forever not even the immortal Mozart's symphony.I spoke to her eyes , she made my world & before I knew it I was into her,Months & years passed , she made my day everyday,Like a king she would nurture,Ca'nt believe she lay down me , now the love we shared slowly started the process of necrosis,& again before I knew it she was going to another world , leaving me all alone,& now I'm engraving my heart out on her stone.The last time I looked into her eyes, I did not cry,not a single tear,Thats what she said , that was good enough for the rest of my life here.Our love is immortal , where ever we might be nothing can come in our way,Those long walks in the dusk , those beautiful words,Nothing was like her warmth at the end of the day,I will miss her , but I'll live as if it was yesterday,Her spirit free in space , another minor change in our relationship carefuly moulded with clay,There wo'nt be a single second I wo'nt think of her as I walk back,The sun down , night beckons , as she lay down in her bed forever,the demons in my head attackI will fight them for her , so long my soulmate, my lover,I will love you always , be it in this world or another

Why?

Looking around I see sacrifices made by men with valor as they lie down dead
A father, a son, a brother, a friend, sole winner of the entire family’s bread
The smell still fresh in the air like in a human grocery store selling flesh and blood
Countless dying for a cause so reckless that even the gods ashamed bury their faces in mud
I see a widow, an orphan with no tears in their eyes as they have done in to the grief
Their future bleak they ask Allah why they have to suffer why we get swept away by the breeze
They just keep on asking him why, where the lords shine and dine in their triumph and success
For their own political might and avarice their skeletons anonymous and secure in the boxes
The ones caught in the nexus are us, we the people who meaninglessly put our lives online
Some brainwashed, some for pride give away their souls as a dakshina in the name of the sacred shrine
I look further, dust and rubble around me, the sun glaring down where houses stood before
They weren’t villas but they were homes for families filled with love which you can’t find in this world anymore
Playgrounds made in to graveyards, roads into battlefields the only sound I can hear of the paramedical teams
Im not scared anymore of the sounds of explosions or of helpless people’s screams
Im used to blood shed it happens everyday but I ask why or whom is this giving satanic pleasure
Is it the devil who plays or are we getting the fruits we deserve, why take away our happiness that we treasure
I have never ridden a bike; played on lawns, I was born in the world of hatred fear
Running away from death finding solace as soon as possible gives out the victory cheer
I am not oblivious anymore I demand answers for all this mayhem, why god why
But all I get is a cold shoulder and orders to sit in that dark corner and cry
We are not refugees this is our home land our place of birth, this is my country
I can’t bear to see houses burnt to dust stop this war this is pure infiltry
The lessons we learn from school is not education but fear of arms and ammunition
Yet no one comes forward in a force so strong to stop this human death fair of attrition
We have no proper food forget about the clothes and place to save our heads
Ive been living alone since the day I saw them blown up into shreds
I cried and cried all night and went hungry for days together
But I pray that that all this ends a hope which will dampen never
The hoot of the aero plane sends a rush as they send out packets of food
I walk with a single leg, crippled but I will fight for me and my country as a true hero should

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I walk down the eternal path of truth searching for all the questions bestowed upon humankind
Begging for mercy from the almighty, it is the only way out, but still no answers that I could find
I begged him forgiveness for all the atrocities committed by us spanning 300 years or so
He told me look at the rate we’re going killing Mother Nature mercilessly harming her rhythmic flow
Making the earth sweat eventually Mother Nature has to reply in her way bringing on the calamities
It’s the seeds that we have reaped as countless sins we’ve sown to make this day, and we rest happily thinking we have done our duties
The future is not unseen, as there are going to be millions of innocent people homeless
Dying form starvation the nomadic era will begin again provided they escape from the fury of the sea rendering them helpless
Cities will drown, nature getting its revenge there is nothing you can do then so start now, respect the mother, the creator
Then you’ll get the respect back from her, this is just her warning bell that you should fear
Oh almighty wait I beg you to do something about the human nature where has the love disappeared?
He said look at what we’ve done separated one race in the name of religion making it a scapegoat to create the great divide
Killing innocents as we uncover the truth behind genocides happening from a long time, as the masterminds are cowards who only know how to hide
The teachings of one love one world gone in vain as the human mind gets filled up with poison bringing my name in to shame
Greed, jealously, corruption I cant believe I created you, my aesthetic creation turned in to a monster so insane
I just wanted at least the chastity to remain but that has been dirtied in this puddle of mud which rips apart peace
Now for every person there is a bullet made, what is freedom when your own life is on lease?
I still begged is there any way out, any revolution any uprising that can awaken peoples minds
He said look at the people who have tried, they are considered soporific and put to waste
That attitude of people is taking away precious seconds as it’ll only aggravate doomsday and end of the human era, it’s a little too late
I said I will try and inspire many like me, ignite their souls and fight against injustice done by the devil that lay inside
He said im there with you, truth always wins, you’re a pure heart why don’t you ask anything for yourself,
Oh almighty I strive to make this world a better place and myself a better human being although there is one thing that’s left
I beg for finding love, someone who can love me for who I am and understand me better than myself
Someone who I can share my laughter and my tears someone who can always be there unconditionally
It shouldn’t be a burden, but a flower glazed in dew drops so beautiful
A girl that comes in my life and turns it upside sown so mystically
God----he was gone disappeared into thin air I don’t know what his message was
I close my eyes and pray-was it too much that I asked for???

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I walk down the eternal path of truth searching for all the questions bestowed upon humankind
Begging for mercy from the almighty, it is the only way out, but still no answers that I could find
I begged him forgiveness for all the atrocities committed by us spanning 300 years or so
He told me look at the rate we’re going killing Mother Nature mercilessly harming her rhythmic flow
Making the earth sweat eventually Mother Nature has to reply in her way bringing on the calamities
It’s the seeds that we have reaped as countless sins we’ve sown to make this day, and we rest happily thinking we have done our duties
The future is not unseen, as there are going to be millions of innocent people homeless
Dying form starvation the nomadic era will begin again provided they escape from the fury of the sea rendering them helpless
Cities will drown, nature getting its revenge there is nothing you can do then so start now, respect the mother, the creator
Then you’ll get the respect back from her, this is just her warning bell that you should fear
Oh almighty wait I beg you to do something about the human nature where has the love disappeared?
He said look at what we’ve done separated one race in the name of religion making it a scapegoat to create the great divide
Killing innocents as we uncover the truth behind genocides happening from a long time, as the masterminds are cowards who only know how to hide
The teachings of one love one world gone in vain as the human mind gets filled up with poison bringing my name in to shame
Greed, jealously, corruption I cant believe I created you, my aesthetic creation turned in to a monster so insane
I just wanted at least the chastity to remain but that has been dirtied in this puddle of mud which rips apart peace
Now for every person there is a bullet made, what is freedom when your own life is on lease?
I still begged is there any way out, any revolution any uprising that can awaken peoples minds
He said look at the people who have tried, they are considered soporific and put to waste
That attitude of people is taking away precious seconds as it’ll only aggravate doomsday and end of the human era, it’s a little too late
I said I will try and inspire many like me, ignite their souls and fight against injustice done by the devil that lay inside
He said im there with you, truth always wins, you’re a pure heart why don’t you ask anything for yourself,
Oh almighty I strive to make this world a better place and myself a better human being although there is one thing that’s left
I beg for finding love, someone who can love me for who I am and understand me better than myself
Someone who I can share my laughter and my tears someone who can always be there unconditionally
It shouldn’t be a burden, but a flower glazed in dew drops so beautiful
A girl that comes in my life and turns it upside sown so mystically
God----he was gone disappeared into thin air I don’t know what his message was
I close my eyes and pray-was it too much that I asked for???

The Wonder Years

Times ticking.22 days to go.Im getting emotional now.Im leaving home for the first time,and just like a dulhans bidaai people are bidding their farewells but Im not crying like in the movies.
Im looking forward to the new challenge.
The time I spent at home have been the best years of my life,The Wonder Years!!!
The poeple I met,the lives Ive changed,the friendship,chivalry,love,joy pain etc billions of emotions that Ive felt are going to be left
behind until I return and reclaim them.
Im going to miss my cousin brothers growing up,going to miss my familia and all my friends.My car,Jalnidhi and all the places that we hogged like hungry pigs!!
Going to miss Mumbai and her charm despite all the pollution and untidiness.
I told Omi that when i sit on that plane,Im going to down a few glasses and just get lost in my memories.I wish I could visit every memory like in the Harry Potter series but alas!!
But alcohol helps you getting there some what,so ya Im not carrying any object of distraction on the flight.
I told people that Im coming back after 9 years which wouldnt be true cos I dont think I can stay away from home so long.
And in every new person I befriend I hope to share with them some portion of the wonder years that Ive lived so far. . .

Rockin on!!

My first blog on my new laptop,my future companion for my transitional life in England.

Ive finished watching rock on!! umpteen number of times now and finally a sense of satisfaction settles in as an unconventional movie has made it big in bollywood.Sure it was cliche,predictable but so was jaane tu.. the unsung hit flcik among the youth.Farhan Akhtar has been an inspiration,I mean the production house which made the movie Bachpan is called DCH Productions as it was Dil Chahta Hai that set our adolescent lives into motion.Dil Chahta hai literally means doing what the heart wants and me and my freinds are what you say in Hindi -Jasbaati cos that is how we take decisions in our life - with our hearts.

Now Rock on,may be Farhans first as an actor but his voice with the rockin' music of shankar ehsaan and loy is what sets this movie apart. Im in love with prachi desai and I love the part when she sings Ajeeb Daastan.

Purab,Luke and Arjun Rampal(his best movie so far) have given magikal perfomances along with the new comer Shahana Goswami who has really donned her role to perfection.

Rock On!! is for the youth,as all of Farhans movies are,its for living your dream no matter where life takes you.If you believe you shall achieve all your dreams,
Rock on!! is an exemplary movie for bollywood.It takes guts to make this kind of a movie and all the wanna bee rock fans who do not prefer hindi lyrics what can i say!!!Wannabees shalt always remain wannabees..

Rock On folks lml

DCH Bachpan

Finally the video which we toiled so hard for is out and it has got some rave reviews and me and the guys are so happy.We have to celebrate the success and launch the making of the video but the whole experience was so enthralling I broke down the first time I saw the final cut.I end up watching the video 10 times a day,actually in the night from 2am or so,but the sense of satisfaction I get is beyond any feeling.The fateful sunday where Shazi who was supposed to be the third guy in the movie changed evrything.It was destined to be me and Omi on screen and not the three of us.Sunday 445 am,shazi is not picking up his calls.1 week to go.The major chunk was to be shot on sunday.It was a decision which we took in a split second and Im glad me,omi and unz went ahead with the script as today we can reap the fruits of work which is equivalent to a worker in a stone quarry.That morning we took the car reached churchgate by 6am,started shooting in formals.Changed in the car,since no one was there on the road,it was easy.Casuals on,we shot again.After the best breakfast Ive had in my life..yet we headed back home and reached around 12 pm.Slept for a while,2 pm we were back shooting the car sequence.440 pm we are back at home changing into our football oufits and the kids came down at 445.Kudos to Omi and Asha for managing the kids.Unz the director could have died,as he was leaning from the terrace but by 630 we did manage to get all the shots and it was a wrap.No vanity vans,no permission,no sopt boys its tough man this shooting schedule.Its not a thing for the faint hearted.Monday we didnt shoot at all,so Tuesday,Wednesday we did the remaining scenes and there was this extra shot where we wanted a girl to be shown as Omi's girl friend but didnt work out due to heavy rain fall(thank god it didnt rain all that time).
By the end of the week,we had the complete footage and the software and Unz slogged his ass off at nights and edited the footage cutting it from a 60 mins video to an 8 min 32 sec work of magic.
The loactions where we shot were our society-jalnidhi,marine drive,gateway of india,afghan church ,colaba and few places around our area like the chaat waalas, of course barista but we showed ccd since theie logo was readily accessible, azad maidan,d8 building(where i live) terrace,
laxmi park(used for weddings mostly,my house,omis house,the bhatt's house and of course the ground where the most incredible sessions were played the satdio santiago bridge olimpico(cricket strictly prohibited,tresspassers have been prosecuted)


I cant watch this after I go to Surrey,Ill cry like a baby.i shouldve said that in the end.Anyways the making of the video should be coming soon but I dont think Ill put that up,because we've done so many stupid things.

But it was an experience of a life time.We've made a lotta fans on the way,for eg curious on looker like watchmen,kachra waalas,barista staff,mr.Bankim and of course my so called "father in law"(Ill be writing a full article on that later) the great Mr.Malinga the Ceylonese Honduran.
Un fortunately Shaz wasnt there but hey thats fate.It had to be DCH,the wedding crashers,
And all credit to Unz,the director and editor.Of course Asha for all her support.Arya,Anish their parents,Chirag.
And to all my friends who have appreciated me for the video.Now they do understand Im not a vagabond,I have some amount of creative streak here and there.
Thank you!!!Grazias Signoras and Amicos and the In betweens..(read shaz)..ha ha ha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tu_LGur7aSo

Guildford Here I come

My first post of this month.Its been so hectic,but I read in am astro prediction somewhere that from August is when my so called 'good' time begins and voila,1st august our music video is done,and my visa comes after the long anticipated wait.So ya,things did pan out good in the end,and from this month a gruesome list of things to be done more tougher than any task done by me beckons but finally it is a realisation of a dream.Since the past some time,feels like an eternity to me Ive been wanting to live life.On my own,as In a Libran i love being independent so the dream has to be studying and working in a foreign land and all this time it was the USA.But fate had its own story and just like MK Gandhi I head to the United Kingdom in my pursuit of freedom.Im not drawing up comparisons with the Mahatma but we were born on the same date,so there are some incredible coincidences.
Anyways,the sadness of leaving Mumbai is over shadowed by a sense of adventure,something new and a path untrodden.A new chapter,a journey without a map and I cant wait to start my life in Surrey.Its going to be tough,obviously nothing in life comes easy.Cooking,washing clothes,managing money(trust me Im so bad) and obviously the challenges of living in a foreign land is all what Im looking forward to.
Its a dream that is becoming a clearer picture as time ticks by,and although Mumbai is my home in this life,its about time I turn my boring life on the hook and take the path that destiny has set up for me.